the earth is always rotating
i would say everything is moving on.
am i moving on,
am i keeping up with the upcoming stuff
or am i still way far back and catching up?

trying to improves myself
yet dont really have the heart to do it.
something is missing,
short circuit in my brain.
too many wires, i supposed.

recently,
studying the avid media composer manual.
practice audio mixing.
learn photoshop,
make your eyes big, chin slim, nose sharp...
finding friends to go dinner with every night.
considering if i should quit drinking,
my health is...
when am i going to get a driving license.
and i cant afford a car.
holidays...
deadly looking forward to,
hope it comes true.
i wanna go tibet, nepal, hongkong.
trying to read more books.

what's next...
getting a new cellphone.
do i actually need that???
still catching up with my friends.
roomie when are you free?

i need some time that belongs to myself.
throw everything out of my mind.
i dont know if you consider this as lost
or its just clearing out my thoughts.
is there a short cut for me,
sometimes i am really tired.
why are people always getting their way out easy,
and i am not.
its not the time.
next life.
i would never want it again.
i am trying,
just to get a simple life that truly belong to me.

i admit i am afraid to die,
i would miss the one i really loved.
but if i had a second chance to live,
i would choose...
not to have it.

and the earth continue to rotate.